Beejing on the Quarter Life Crisis
I stopped going along with the crowd.
I started realizing that there are a lot of things about myself.
I somewhat wonder where will I be in a year or two.
I am scared because I barely know where I am now.
I started realizing that some people are selfish.
I started thinking that, maybe, those friends I thought to be I’m close to are not exactly the greatest people I know.
I started thinking that, maybe, those friends I’ve lost in touch with are the importants ones.
I look at my job on a 3rd person’s perspective and I am scared.
I miss the comforts of college, of my groups, of me socializing with the same people in consistency.
But I sometimes think that, maybe, they weren’t so great after all.
I’m beginning to understand more of myself.
My opinions are getting stronger.
I feel insecure and secure.
I find myself judging a bit more than usual.
I realized that I have boundaries.
I’ve added a lot to my list of what is acceptable and what is not.
I now laugh and cry with the greatest force of life.
I feel alone, scared and confused.
I suddenly feel that change is the enemy and I try to cling on the past but I realized that the past is drifting further and further.
I got my heart broken and wondered how someone I loved could do such damage.
I sometimes wonder why can’t I meet anyone decent enough to know me better.
Random hook ups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like idiots start to look pathetic.
I worry about the future and making a life for myself.
What I don’t know is that everyone can relate to this.
We are in our best of times and our worst times.
*sigh*
