I stopped going along with the crowd.

I started realizing that there are a lot of things about myself.

I somewhat wonder where will I be in a year or two.

I am scared because I barely know where I am now.

I started realizing that some people are selfish.

I started thinking that, maybe, those friends I thought to be I’m close to are not exactly the greatest people I know.

I started thinking that, maybe, those friends I’ve lost in touch with are the importants ones.

I look at my job on a 3rd person’s perspective and I am scared.

I miss the comforts of college, of my groups, of me socializing with the same people in consistency.

But I sometimes think that, maybe, they weren’t so great after all.

I’m beginning to understand more of myself.

My opinions are getting stronger.

I feel insecure and secure.

I find myself judging a bit more than usual.

I realized that I have boundaries.

I’ve added a lot to my list of what is acceptable and what is not.

I now laugh and cry with the greatest force of life.

I feel alone, scared and confused.

I suddenly feel that change is the enemy and I try to cling on the past but I realized that the past is drifting further and further.

I got my heart broken and wondered how someone I loved could do such damage.

I sometimes wonder why can’t I meet anyone decent enough to know me better.

Random hook ups start to look cheap.

Getting wasted and acting like idiots start to look pathetic.

I worry about the future and making a life for myself.

What I don’t know is that everyone can relate to this.

We are in our best of times and our worst times.

*sigh*

GET A LIFE

I finished a heavy duty report just a few minutes ago and it took me almost 2 hours to complete. -Sigh- I can now breathe. Back to blogging. Yeah, I admit that this blog has been going dormant and this is actually my fault. I have been very busy at work trying to absorb reports, statistics, and emails. In fact, I’m in the office most of the time checking and double-checking the reports, making the team stats and nosebleeding on my agents’ attitude problem. Worse, I still don’t have broadband access at home. I need to pay my bills, fast. Well, at least I can still access my blog at work. haha! As for my twitter account, it has been surf-controlled just today. Darn. Too bad.

On a serious note, last Sunday was not a good time for me. I was baptized on fire, as they (other supervisors) call it. It was my first time to be alone taking care of the OPs Floor and it’s in the GraveYard shift. Although, I have been taking care of the OPs Floor alone for a few times but that was on the AM shift. Sunday was different. Wohooo! I thought I’d never make it but surprisingly I did. Haha. By the time I ended the 14 hour shift I was ready to break down and collapse. And yeah, I did, at the comfort of my bed. I woke up 10 hours later. I was supposed to have 3 rest days but I had to cover the operations because the other Supervisors are on a team building - without me. “Without me” is another story.

Wednesday. I came in 30 minutes before my scheduled time-in. The moment I entered the OPs Floor I knew something’s up. I opened my 150+ emails and carefully read through each of them. I was almost done reading all the emails and flagging those that needs to be flagged when a Supervisor (who used to be my Supervisor too) told me she needs to talk to me about something. I knew it - this was it.

I had to brace myself when she delivered the news. It was kinda sad (on my part) and I know they’re happy with it. Yet again, I have to accept the fact that they’re leaving. They’re - because she’s not the only one but there’s 3 of them. One of them used to be my supervisor who taught me a lot. It never occured to me that they’ll be leaving this soon. I’ve come to love them but there are things we have to let go. My question is why this soon?

Well, that’s Life.

Well, I’m pretty sure American Idol Fans are debating who’s gonna win Season 7. For me it has be David, not Archuleta but Cook. David Cook.

Who do you think will win Tuesday’s performance for the Final Three. Let’s take a look…(as I’ve said My Take)

ROUND ONE: The songs were picked by the judges themselves.

David Archuleta - He sang “And so it goes” chosen by Paula Abdul. Again, he changed the song to my dislike. But I think the song was a good choice for him. His voice was just too perfect. Well, I listened to Billy Joel’s original version and yeah David wasn’t able to give justice. Too bad. I guess an average viewer might have liked his version but for me, it’s nah.

Syesha Mercado - She’s up with my personal fave artist Alicia Keys. She sang “If I ain’t got you” Randy Jackson picked the song. For me, Syesha sounded like Alicia but lacked the emotion I was looking for in that song. Overall, she gave a “performance” but as the judges would say “this was not her best.”

David Cook - He nailed Roberta Flack’s “The First Time I Ever Saw Your Face.” This time, the song was picked by wicked Simon Cowell. The song was rather slow and I admit it was his usual style. But he nailed it. He gave justice. I bet Cook’s fans would download this song.

Yeah, ROUND ONE goes to…. DAVID, not Archuleta but Cook. David Cook.

(more…)

It is exactly 2 weeks today when our Internet got disconnected. I know it was our fault. Haha. We don’t have the time to go to Globe Payment Center and pay the bills. Lazy meh, I mean us. And so after 2 months of not paying attention to the Notice of Disconnection, we got what we deserved. lols. Now, I have to live for a few weeks without internet. Although, I can browse some websites in the office but I’m afraid to get reprimanded by our IT Administrator. Haha. Anyway, I have a lot of photo albums to upload, sites to visit, social networking accounts to update, and yet it’s still gonna be a long time before we get the internet connection restored. I’m getting frustrated of just staying at home watching Lobo when all of the blogosphere is in chaos. lols. I feel so left behind. Well, as I’ve said we got what we deserve. 

There are a lot of changes in my life recently. I’m not even sure if I’m keeping up but I guess these changes are tolerable.

One. I just got new responsibilities in the office and I’m not sure if I can live up to the expectations. I know I can handle the responsibilities, but I need all the help I can get and I know my colleagues (especially my manager) are there to support me. I need to be more focused this time. Career is getting good, I know that for sure.

Two. I just got moved to the morning shift. Yeah, I kinda like it but I am still adjusting my body clock. I have been on the evening shift for almost 3 years now and suddenly my schedule goes back to normal working hours. I may need to take supplements this time, seriously.

Three. On my previous blog entry, a friend met a horrible accident while intoxicated. That made me realise that I need to slow *sigh* down my alcohol in-take.

Four. In relation to my morning shift. I haven’t smoked any cigarettelately. I’m quite busy on the reports. This is actually good. lols.

Five. I’m nose-bleeding from a friend’s bragging sessions about her so-called career. Worse - It’s almost on a daily basis. 

Six. Cebu’s temperature is getting into my nerves.

Seven. I haven’t been to the beach for almost 2 weeks now. By the way, I love the beach just recently. I used to hate beaches.

Eight. I’m torn between our company summer outing and our team’s beach outing and what’s bad about the two - they’re both on the same dates.

Nine. I miss my family.

Ten. My Internet connection at home is down, 2 days now.

Eleven. I need to pay my bills or else…

Twelve. I need to save more and get a decent -ahem- laptop this time.

Thirteen. I need to reconsider the option to transfer to a new crib. My current crib is getting crowded.

Fourteen. I think, I need a love life. lols.

Fifteen. I want to be really really HAPPY.

That’s all.

Let’s DO our share.

Save Earth.

Save Lives.

Happy Earth Day Everyone!

Photo courtesy : Destinationgreen.com

Well, I’m moving. I’ve just realized to move out. I’m moving out from this domain. I’m gonna launch it next week. wohooo!

Anyway, I’m currently hooked into this song… 

Well, this Saturday… Camotes Islands… here I come! Beach again…